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You’re just making me want to do it more… So thanks :)

So last year at some point I posted on this site how I identify (mostly) as nonbinary. And recently had been getting some comments… You know the type…. bible verses…. God… Abomination..  blah blah blah. (I’ve since deleted them, it’s my blog, I can do that) But it’s so strange to me how people start saying all this weird stuff, and some of them get outright angry, all because I sometimes do not conform to wearing only articles of clothing that belong to my assigned gender.

One thing good about all this, is it woke me up to the fact that I have been ignoring this side of me for a good part of 2020, and people posting ignorant comments, both here on as well as on my YouTube channel, has inspired me to bust out my makeup, buy some new girly clothes, and just start doing some videos on YouTube fully dressed in clothing usually attributed to being ‘female’ rather than male. I’m full on now babes, and I’m not coming back.

Though I think the first time I ever dressed as a girl was when I was a small child. It is something I have always enjoyed. But many times before recently I would only use bits and pieces here and there publicly, like a little eyeliner here, a little women’s top there, but never until this week have I gone fully in ‘drag’ for lack of a better term, on my YouTube channel.

Contrary to what you may think by reading this, I’m not big into labels. I don’t get hung up on pronouns, or even what to call myself and my personal lifestyle. I only said nonbinary before because I felt it most closely represented what I feel. I guess another term could be ‘gender nonconforming’. But that’s just more labels. You can just call me Justin… Or Demonic Sweaters.

Anyway, here’s a collection of some of my recent videos of me being me….

So anyway… thanks for the unintentional inspiration mean commentors, you’ve pushed into being more myself than ever 🙂

Being Non-Binary, and why I look different in so many of my videos

Above is a selection of videos where my appearance is quite different in each video. I’ve had a lot of comments lately of people either making fun of my looks or giving me complements. It doesn’t really bother me when people try to insult me (though I really think you should get help), but I wanted to create this post to help others who may be similar to me in how they handle their personal appearance.

First off, I view myself as an entertainer and educator, and when I am at my best, I am taking very good care of my appearance and presenting myself in my videos in a way (or at least trying) that I feel looks good. Second, I guess I could be described as somewhat non-binary, at least in my fashion choices. I like men’s and women’s clothes. I also wear makeup sometimes. I really don’t think it is a big deal at all, but some people can’t seem two wrap their heads around this concept.

Some of my vids, I’m just straight up lazy, and my hair is sloppy, and I’m basically still in my pajamas, haha. But my more recent videos I’ve been trying to change this. I’m using better mics, and making sure to use my good camera, and when I dress up for my videos, I have been wearing some makeup to enhance the features of my face that I actually like (like my eyes).

Being in the public eye is an odd phenomena. My videos have been viewed close to 2 million times at this point. This doesn’t really make me a celebrity exactly, but still it is quite a lot of people to be looking at, criticizing and judging me based on my appearance. I’m also very into fashion, and enjoy taking risks. Sometimes it works, and sometimes… well, it doesn’t. But you don’t really know unless you try it.

So this is me not apologizing, but saying to those who face similar challenges, that you’re not alone and I’m right there with you.

Thanks to all of you who have kindly supported me and keep me moving forward.

Sideling Hill [mathrock, synthwave, wierbonski]

This track I played Drums, Guitar, Bass, and Synth. I had fun with the video wearing some cute (and weird) outfits. It was once again recorded on my 2005 iBook G4 using the Mbox 1 Audio interface.
Drums: Tama Imperialstar Bop https://amzn.to/2Fbemvg
Guitar: Ibanez GRX20w https://amzn.to/2JXVSgM
Bass: Crescent Precision Copy https://amzn.to/2qGUnKW
Amplification: Ammoon PockRock https://amzn.to/2POZruV
#mathrock #experimental #crossdressing #queer #dragqueen #drummer #weird #synthwave #guitarrock #heavy #drummer #oddtimesignature #newyorkcity #brooklyn #demonicsweaters #90s #rad