Above is a selection of videos where my appearance is quite different in each video. I’ve had a lot of comments lately of people either making fun of my looks or giving me complements. It doesn’t really bother me when people try to insult me (though I really think you should get help), but I wanted to create this post to help others who may be similar to me in how they handle their personal appearance.
First off, I view myself as an entertainer and educator, and when I am at my best, I am taking very good care of my appearance and presenting myself in my videos in a way (or at least trying) that I feel looks good. Second, I guess I could be described as somewhat non-binary, at least in my fashion choices. I like men’s and women’s clothes. I also wear makeup sometimes. I really don’t think it is a big deal at all, but some people can’t seem two wrap their heads around this concept.
Some of my vids, I’m just straight up lazy, and my hair is sloppy, and I’m basically still in my pajamas, haha. But my more recent videos I’ve been trying to change this. I’m using better mics, and making sure to use my good camera, and when I dress up for my videos, I have been wearing some makeup to enhance the features of my face that I actually like (like my eyes).
Being in the public eye is an odd phenomena. My videos have been viewed close to 2 million times at this point. This doesn’t really make me a celebrity exactly, but still it is quite a lot of people to be looking at, criticizing and judging me based on my appearance. I’m also very into fashion, and enjoy taking risks. Sometimes it works, and sometimes… well, it doesn’t. But you don’t really know unless you try it.
So this is me not apologizing, but saying to those who face similar challenges, that you’re not alone and I’m right there with you.
Thanks to all of you who have kindly supported me and keep me moving forward.